DAviette with boys

I recently had someone say to me, ” If you are too beautiful, people will hate you.”

This statement was made when referring to a picture that I had posted online.  These words have been nagging at me for a little while now.  You see, I am guilty of spending much of my life shrinking so as to avoid the ‘hatred’ of others.  My mother would say to me,”  God made you and He made you beautiful.  If someone has a problem with that, then you tell them to just take it up with HIM!”

It took me a while to put on that armor and to use it.  I am not about to stop now.  I have NO intentions of shrinking in order to avoid jealousy or envy.  The truth as I have learned it is that you can’t really please everyone anyway.

I am who I am.  Now I’ll be honest and say that these last few years with numerous pregnancies have taken my appearance on a bit of a roller coaster ride.  But I am still the same.  And soon after I am done with baby-making, I am sure that my body will also jump off of the roller coaster.

The following poem written by7 Marianne Williamson reminds me to go ahead and shine..

Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.